I want to look back on my life and say that I lived each day with no regrets. I may have made mistakes, but each one has shaped who I am .
I am still alive. I have just been in hiding. Why? To be honest, I feel guilty, ashamed,etc. I know it is superficial, but it is in my head.
I have not consistently worked out since I got pregnant. Sure, I work out once or maybe twice a week. But, inside I feel like it is not enough and it is not fair to be here when I am not doing what I should.
Plus, my eating habits have been pure crap. My clean eating has gone out the door. I was 90%clean eating before and now I am lucky if it is 50%. Now is when I REALLY need to eat well to nourish my baby, but I have fallen off the wagon. I am trying, but it is the laziness factor that makes the other unhealthy choices appealing.
I am trying to get back into a routine, but I know I can’t do as much as before. At least if I could be consistent with a daily yoga routine I would be happier.
In other news, we are having a boy!!! He is growing rapidly and is healthy. He has started kicking like crazy. The due date is June 27,
My hubby asked me what I wanted for dinner. I told him a baked potato and sour cream. We are out of sour cream. He asked me AGAIN what I wanted and told him the same thing. He said he didn’t really want to get out. I said I guess I would find something here to eat.
I then went into the kitchen and proceeded to boo hoo. Oh my. This is going to be a long pregnancy. My first cry is over a baked potato. I can only image what else I will cry over.
I made my nephew watch the “What Does The Fox Say” video today. He has been singing it all day.
I don’t know whether to be proud or worried.